So, the past week includes the following:
Joined the Equipoise gym on Monday and worked out on the elliptical trainer Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday. I went to physical therapy with Doug on Wednesday and he gave me some strengthening exercises to add to my repetoire.
I ate breakfast just about everyday – except for Tuesday when I felt really nauseous most of the day. I ate either the Kashi Go Lean Crunch or Honeynut Cheerios and on one day I ate Gardino’s crack mix (those snack crackers that I occasionally get addicted to). When I took my lunch I ate it, salad, amy’s rice bowls, yogurt. When I didn’t take it, I ended up not eating.
I also took a walk up to the front of the complex last night and walked back. I didn’t walk very fast, but faster than a stroll. I stopped up there to wait for Pooh to get home. She didn’t see me when she came through the gate so I had to walk back.
Dinner was not as healthy and included take-out everyday: pizza, pig-n-chick, mexican food, publix chicken.
I find myself with an achy, sick tummy today and absolutely no muscle aches. I did some tricep curls and lat pull downs at the gym and never felt the effects of them, which I find a bit odd.
Supposedly a trainer is going to call me from the gym for a complimentary assessment. That will be nice. They also have pilates classes, but they start at 6:30 and I can’t get there that early without changing my work schedule a bit. I think I’m going to change it anyway, especially during the winter, because last year I found myself uncomfortable walking to the MARTA station at 6pm once it would get dark.
I’ve got to call Mommy and find out the latest about Daddy getting out of the nursing home.
The hives have been much better this week, only showing up on Friday.
Early in the week I felt like I was really doing good work, including finding the DTS Wizard for the SQL 2005 and testing it. During the last two days of the week though I didn’t feel like I was accomplishing anything. I was just too bored and tired.
Im reading a really interesting book on the train by Eckhart Tolle. It’s really making me think.
I’m craving playing the guitar. I think I’m going to get it out and try again. I just find myself wanting to play with it on my way home these days. I tend to be exhausted when I get home from the gym, but I may switch to going in the morning instead of in the evening and resolve that issue, allowing me the time to play guitar and/or cook dinner. I don’t have a clear plan for dinner yet, though breakfast and lunch are working pretty well.
I plan to go shopping tomorrow for some fresh fruit and vegetables at Whole Paycheck, since it appears the International Farmer’s Market is going out of business. When I was in there last – the shelves were mostly empty, the parking lot was empty, the people who sell things outside were no longer there, they no longer accept debit cards. It was sad. I’ll have to check the other nearby farmer’s markets. I need to work on a plan for dinner.
I also wrote an e-mail to Dave Clapper and to Coco’s club trying to help out Verse Under Current. I love that band and want to help them. Dave wrote back and I’ll have to answer him tomorrow or so. He sent me a couple of pictures of Jack. He’s a beauty. Looks like his dad.
I weighed myself at the gym on Tuesday or Thursday. I weigh 265 pounds! That’s too much for me. So now’s the time to lose 150 pounds; 135 pounds at the very least. I think I will feel better physically at that weight. Health and fitness are part of my goal. Happiness is another and exercise helps with the depression, though I think I’ve been managing that well. I also want to work on Buddhism. I’m getting back to wanting the same things I wanted before guitar, Buddhism, veganism, physical fitness, perl developing, friends, a lover, more fun.
I’ve got to do something about my hair. I believe it needs professional help, but I’ve apparently not found the place I want to work with – or at least not a convenient one. I just need to decide it’s convenient and contact that place on West Wieuca.
I’ve decided I will soon get another car which has allowed me to release worry about my car. I do still want to move so I can have a place to park my car to work on it, but I may just need to give that up and let it go. I’ve realized that I’m ashamed of having a roommate at my age. That’s the main reason I want to get a house – to live like I believe someone my age should live, though that’s not actually true. I would love to live like I do in my fantasy – cohabitating with a group of beloved people, with family. Hmmm, sounds like I’m trying to bow down to what I believe to be social expectations, though I usually tend to reject that sort of thing. Every so often I need to remind myself of what I want; what I believe and give up other people’s values.
Today I watched the Nationwide race. It was on a road course in Montreal named after Jacques Villeneuve’s dead father Gilles. It ended up being run in the rain. First NASCAR race run in the rain. It ended early when the rain got so heavy the drivers couldn’t see, but after Jacques Villeneuve and Joey Logano crashed during caution laps (the caution was because of rain).
Since I’ve been feeling poorly all day I going to head to bed soon. Next post should be a bit less meandering an d a bit more focused – but maybe not. There are no rules since this is mine, all mine.
The Way I See It!